STOP *ACTING* LIKE YOU'RE DOING YOUR JOBS BY *NOT* DOING YOUR DAMN JOBS.

i've had it. amy acts like finding housing is an easy thing to do.. it might be easy in stupid ass states like minnesota but I TOLD HER I'VE BEEN A MEMBER OF THE HOUSING COMPANY SINCE 2022. THAT'S A LITTLE MORE THAN 3 YEARS. I AM AWARE THAT I AM FORTY YEARS OLD. I DON'T HAVE ALL THE FUCKIN TIME IN THE WORLD TO ACCOMODATE YOUR NEEDS BECAUSE THIS IS MY LIFE AND YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING YOUR JOB. you act like i just woke up one day and was like, "OO BOSTON AND NEW YORK LOOK LIKE COOL PLACES TO LIVE! I WANNA LIVE THERE!" NONONO.. this has been MY dream and goal since i was FIFTEEN years old. i even ALMOST died trying to complete it when i was sixteen. i do know what i want and it's NOT to live off social security, drink pepsi, and smoke cigarette after cigarette while living in subsidized housing in minnesota.. SO GO FUCK YOURSELVES IF YOU HAVE THAT IN MIND FOR ME- AMANDA, MY MOM, AND AMY. i've BUSTED my ass off in rehabilitation therapy at the courage center, went to a few colleges, and worked a few jobs NOT to just be satisfied living in minnesota where it's more convenient for people who just pay attention to me when it's convenient and/or beneficial for THEM when it's NOT THEIR LIVES. i hope jem can see why the hell it took so damn long just to get where i am today. I'M NOT GONNA BE SATISFIED FOR JUST "GOOD ENOUGH" BECAUSE I'VE BEEN THROUGH WAY TOO MUCH SHIT IN LIFE TO GET LESS THAN WHAT I TRULY FUCKING DESERVE. "I'M NOT GONNA TALK TO YOU IF YOU SWEAR AND YELL AT ME." WELL- DO YOUR DAMN JOB CORRECTLY AND YOU WON'T HAVE TO. heh.. when i think back to people asking me why i don't be a lawmaker- this is an example here.. i have a temper and i'd be too vulgar for the government. i guess the only good thing about today would be i get to talk to my psychologist today about how much i fuckin hate my life. it pisses me off that amy acts like finding housing is easy on the east coast and i'm sure she knows it isn't but she's acting like it is to trick an idiot like me into thinking it is when i know IT'S NOT. SHE'S LIKE ALL THOSE ASSHOLES AT THE COURAGE CENTER WHO UNDERESTIMATE MY INTELLIGENCE AND ABILITIES AND JUST TRY TO KEEP ME FROM PROGRESSING FOR THEIR DAMN CONVENIENCE WHEN THEY CAN JUST SHOVE ME IN A NURSING HOME SOON! i hate amy, my mom, amanda, my fat sister, and all those other fuckin idiots who act like i'm the stupid one and are just trying to keep me from progressing because they don't wanna see someone actually doing something with their fuckin lives because people would wonder why they didn't do things that were as hard to do with their lives also and because i don't deserve to be truly happy with my life if they aren't because MISERY LOVES COMPANY. get me a new trustee.. brian would've never pulled this shit from his ass. you're all selfish pricks. what do i have to do in order to live MY life the way I want? DIE? BECAUSE THAT CAN BE DONE AND I'M GONNA MAKE SURE THAT EVERYONE WHO'S NOT HELPING ME GET WHAT THE FUCK THEY DESERVE.